Today is one of those days..when you just want to curl up under the doona..and refuse to face life. Especially with the grey in the sky, and with the occasionally rain...you just want to cry. Not that I want to cry exactly...but I felt so burdened by this expectation - from work and family, that it seems that I would never be able to catch up.
Work expectation is simpler to handle. I just have to accept whatever criticism that goes my way..from people that dont really understand the extend of the job that I am doing. It sucks, I know. But I guess, it pays to be the boss. I always thought that I am the kind of person who can accepts criticism lightly, never really feel offended or anything. You can scold me, argue or even scream at me..but I would never take it personally. It just stays for a while and then it would fades easily. But this particular ctitcism is different. Somehow, everytime I think about it, feels like a knife just cut right into my heart.
Family expectation is the one that I more concerned about. Just this morning, my mom told me that she doesnt want anything for her birthday. Instead she only asks for one special gift.."the day that you told me that you have finally have a boyfriend...that is the gift that i've been waiting for". Righttttttt...........
Little does she know..that for the past weeks, I have sms-es, have little dates here and there with this guy that I dont like. I am willing to lower my bar as I know that my mom would be really happy if finally I have a boyfriend. I have tried and tried to like the guy..just a little bit...with no avail. He's a nice guy..dont get me wrong...but I just dont like him. It's true when people say that rarely you can get what you want and at the same time you get what you dont want. And sometime what you want is not always what you need. And the tricky bit is you cant differentiate the two. Confused?..me too.
So I guess, for the time being, I would just at least try to enjoy the ride. Enjoy the attention that he's given me. Have to admit, little tenderness and caring wont hurt. I guess, this is the easy way out. Easier than to argue with mom - to make her understand that there are more other improtant things in life, other than searching for a boyfriend . Easier than to broke the poor guy's heart after all his efforts. And I guess, easier than to calm my self that my time to have that special someone has not yet to come.
Friday, January 27, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Past, Present and Future
Came across this kind of post in a stranger's blog ( I am sooo productive during my working hours, huh?). Anyway, am thinking how interestnig it will be if I do one my self....
20 Years Ago
Well practically I cant remember anything as I was still a toddler. But from I've heard from family and relatives, I was an easy child. I was quiet and easily preoccupied with my own mind and world. My obervation nature has also showed during this period. They said that I would like to stare at objects that I found interesting. Well sometimes, it didn't have to be an object, I would like to stare at people too. Nonetheless, I still has this nature of mine. I guess, there's a truth about that theory that says a child personality will be greatly influenced by their first three years of living. Oh well....
10 Years Ago
I was in final year of middle school and I had fun during the year. I've found great friends that still remain until now. I have my first crush to this boy in my class, whom I thought has the cutest smile ever. I wore this thick glasses, therefore I am not that popular during my younger days. I was also an akward teenager with a very low self-confidence. But whatever happened during those years, I still have a great time. But one thing that I can still remember, that I liked to write my diary at nights which only consisted of one thing....I prayed that I can be prettier so boys could be easily attracted to me (so I guess you know what happened to my little crush, back then)
5 Years Ago
I was having the time of my life!!!! I was in Melbourne - my lovely, lovely city. It was my first year in Uni..took Architecture which was a torture due to lack of creativity and dilligency from my side. Just found my two bestest buddies by coincidence. God has His own plan, afterall. The 1st one I've met in a plane journey back to Melbourne after a summer holiday back home. I knew this girl previously, as she was the girlfriend of my ex's best friend but we never had the chance to talk. And in that plane, we were supposedly caught it with our respective boyfriends, but things happened..so I bumped into her in Bali's airport when we have transited and just talked. the next thing I knew.she's still my best friend until today.
The 2nd one I've met in one of my classes. He didn't look like Indonesian and he had this scary-dont-approcah-me-as-i-dont-want-to-be-friend-with-you look. But I was desperate for a friend and my gut was telling me that he's not that scary afterall. And I was right. And I cant imagine my life without having them......
3 Years Ago
I was still in Melbourne, doing my final year in Uni. Has changed major from architectue to construction which is not bad at all. Went out with my 3rd boyfriend and had a strange relationship with him. Him and I werethe kind of people that need to be surrounded by our friends..so sometimes his friends or mine could get in the way. However..whenever we managed to find time to meet each other...it was fun. But I guess..due to lack of commitment from his side..we had to break it off. And it was the most heart-breaking experience that I have encounter. Learnt to be cynical afterwards.
Last Year
Working my ass off by doing something that I thought I would enjoy...Days consisted only for working..and sometime unable to tell the difference each day from the others. Still missing Melbourne so much. But finally few of my best friends had also joined me in Jakarta..so it was not that bad. Just had a Lasik surgery...which was painful afterwards..but grateful by the experience as now I dont have to wear contacts and do other attributes attached to it. Tried to find a boyfriend..but it went down the drain..Was closed to a guy who did not know what he want from life..and I was bored waiting from him to make the decision. Also..my biggest achievement ever...I started to teach!!! Yeah....i teach English to these 4th and 5th graders. The kids are gorgeous and I just love them to bits.
This year
Still working my ass off in the same career. But promised myself that will find other job..if there's no new things that can make me excited and challeged. Also promised my self to learn how to drive.Finally!!!!. Still teaching at the yayasan...And also..promised my self not to be cynical anymore as the wound has healed completely.
Next Year
Has a change in career or at least is giving a different project. Has a better and fulfilling salary..(afterall..I am working for the money). I can drive...I am better inside and out... My teeth braces finally can come off....and will so doing that teeth bleeching thing as I believe..smile is a girl's best weapon.
10 Year
Has a cerrer that I can be proud of. It doesnt have to be some high flyer-powerful-with high salary kind of jobs...but really something I that I would be love doing.l Something that I know that I can picture myself doing it even when I'm old and retire. In terms of domestic live, hopefully by then I have 4 wonderful kids with a marriage that still has a strong passion and understanding. Living in a humble-size house that is nicely decorated. I still have a great friendship with my best friends. And has added few more countries to the list of my adventure.
However if by then I still end up living alone, hopefully I can afford living by myself (still living with parents by this age is just plain pathetic). And has gained the wisdom that living alone is merely by choice..not fate.
20 Years Ago
Well practically I cant remember anything as I was still a toddler. But from I've heard from family and relatives, I was an easy child. I was quiet and easily preoccupied with my own mind and world. My obervation nature has also showed during this period. They said that I would like to stare at objects that I found interesting. Well sometimes, it didn't have to be an object, I would like to stare at people too. Nonetheless, I still has this nature of mine. I guess, there's a truth about that theory that says a child personality will be greatly influenced by their first three years of living. Oh well....
10 Years Ago
I was in final year of middle school and I had fun during the year. I've found great friends that still remain until now. I have my first crush to this boy in my class, whom I thought has the cutest smile ever. I wore this thick glasses, therefore I am not that popular during my younger days. I was also an akward teenager with a very low self-confidence. But whatever happened during those years, I still have a great time. But one thing that I can still remember, that I liked to write my diary at nights which only consisted of one thing....I prayed that I can be prettier so boys could be easily attracted to me (so I guess you know what happened to my little crush, back then)
5 Years Ago
I was having the time of my life!!!! I was in Melbourne - my lovely, lovely city. It was my first year in Uni..took Architecture which was a torture due to lack of creativity and dilligency from my side. Just found my two bestest buddies by coincidence. God has His own plan, afterall. The 1st one I've met in a plane journey back to Melbourne after a summer holiday back home. I knew this girl previously, as she was the girlfriend of my ex's best friend but we never had the chance to talk. And in that plane, we were supposedly caught it with our respective boyfriends, but things happened..so I bumped into her in Bali's airport when we have transited and just talked. the next thing I knew.she's still my best friend until today.
The 2nd one I've met in one of my classes. He didn't look like Indonesian and he had this scary-dont-approcah-me-as-i-dont-want-to-be-friend-with-you look. But I was desperate for a friend and my gut was telling me that he's not that scary afterall. And I was right. And I cant imagine my life without having them......
3 Years Ago
I was still in Melbourne, doing my final year in Uni. Has changed major from architectue to construction which is not bad at all. Went out with my 3rd boyfriend and had a strange relationship with him. Him and I werethe kind of people that need to be surrounded by our friends..so sometimes his friends or mine could get in the way. However..whenever we managed to find time to meet each other...it was fun. But I guess..due to lack of commitment from his side..we had to break it off. And it was the most heart-breaking experience that I have encounter. Learnt to be cynical afterwards.
Last Year
Working my ass off by doing something that I thought I would enjoy...Days consisted only for working..and sometime unable to tell the difference each day from the others. Still missing Melbourne so much. But finally few of my best friends had also joined me in Jakarta..so it was not that bad. Just had a Lasik surgery...which was painful afterwards..but grateful by the experience as now I dont have to wear contacts and do other attributes attached to it. Tried to find a boyfriend..but it went down the drain..Was closed to a guy who did not know what he want from life..and I was bored waiting from him to make the decision. Also..my biggest achievement ever...I started to teach!!! Yeah....i teach English to these 4th and 5th graders. The kids are gorgeous and I just love them to bits.
This year
Still working my ass off in the same career. But promised myself that will find other job..if there's no new things that can make me excited and challeged. Also promised my self to learn how to drive.Finally!!!!. Still teaching at the yayasan...And also..promised my self not to be cynical anymore as the wound has healed completely.
Next Year
Has a change in career or at least is giving a different project. Has a better and fulfilling salary..(afterall..I am working for the money). I can drive...I am better inside and out... My teeth braces finally can come off....and will so doing that teeth bleeching thing as I believe..smile is a girl's best weapon.
10 Year
Has a cerrer that I can be proud of. It doesnt have to be some high flyer-powerful-with high salary kind of jobs...but really something I that I would be love doing.l Something that I know that I can picture myself doing it even when I'm old and retire. In terms of domestic live, hopefully by then I have 4 wonderful kids with a marriage that still has a strong passion and understanding. Living in a humble-size house that is nicely decorated. I still have a great friendship with my best friends. And has added few more countries to the list of my adventure.
However if by then I still end up living alone, hopefully I can afford living by myself (still living with parents by this age is just plain pathetic). And has gained the wisdom that living alone is merely by choice..not fate.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
PMS-ing perhaps?!
This morning..just when I was about to reach my workplace, I came across a somewhat-sweet scene which hunted me until now. There was this middle aged man, pressumably a "tukang ojek", equipped with all his attributes such as leather jacket, handkerchief tied to his neck, and a red faded t-shirt underneath the jacket and a used-to-be-black trousers. He was sitting at the side of the pavement with his helmet laid near him. He looked like he was waiting for someone of something.
Then, out of nowhere, came this stray cat, old and dirty and I bet was smelly too. The guy, then just picked up the cat unto his lap and he gently patted the cat. Over and over again.
I know that for some poeple, there is nothing special about this scene. But for me, while also urged by this bloody PMS, thought that there is nothing more beautiful to start my day than watching such scene.
I just wish that I can come across such scene more often. Where poeple will pat strangers gently.
Then, out of nowhere, came this stray cat, old and dirty and I bet was smelly too. The guy, then just picked up the cat unto his lap and he gently patted the cat. Over and over again.
I know that for some poeple, there is nothing special about this scene. But for me, while also urged by this bloody PMS, thought that there is nothing more beautiful to start my day than watching such scene.
I just wish that I can come across such scene more often. Where poeple will pat strangers gently.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Wish List
1. I wish I am in Melbourne
2. I wish I can still go for coffees in CnB, Chappelis, Giorgos, Laurent, Brunetti, Kush, botanical garden
3. I wish I still in my lecture theaters, tutorial classes
4. I wish I can go to Chapel
5. I wish I can easily hop into trams to take me anywhere
6. I wish my Bon Bon still lives with me
7. I wish I am in my apartment
8. I wish when I turn on the TV, there will be Lifestyle Channel, Fox8, Showtime, etc
9. I wish I can walk along the Yarra River
10. I wish I can eat crepes at that place called ....(damn..I am starting to forget!)
11. I wish for life to be simpler, where a full day consists of waking up, play, play, play and go back to bed
12. I wish I can repeat those Melbourne memories, when I can feel so much happier, lighter and more alive
(Shitttttt..almost 2 years in Jakarta and still unable to even like the city)
2. I wish I can still go for coffees in CnB, Chappelis, Giorgos, Laurent, Brunetti, Kush, botanical garden
3. I wish I still in my lecture theaters, tutorial classes
4. I wish I can go to Chapel
5. I wish I can easily hop into trams to take me anywhere
6. I wish my Bon Bon still lives with me
7. I wish I am in my apartment
8. I wish when I turn on the TV, there will be Lifestyle Channel, Fox8, Showtime, etc
9. I wish I can walk along the Yarra River
10. I wish I can eat crepes at that place called ....(damn..I am starting to forget!)
11. I wish for life to be simpler, where a full day consists of waking up, play, play, play and go back to bed
12. I wish I can repeat those Melbourne memories, when I can feel so much happier, lighter and more alive
(Shitttttt..almost 2 years in Jakarta and still unable to even like the city)
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Older but None the Wiser
Today is my birthday!!!Well...I never been a big celebrator of my own birthdays. Not that I refused to grow up (I know..i'm still in that "Peter Pan Syndrome")...but people expect you to do more when you hit those special days. They expect you to be more than you already are .Suddenly without realising it, when a quarter of a century has passed, it just hits you that you are heavily burdened by this responsibilities and expectations.
It is common and understandable when these expectations come from people around you You can easily ignore them and move on with the rest of the years. But how if these expectations come from yourself? Ignoring is simply not the solution. When I was younger, I always expect myself to be at a certain condition at a certain age. And when it obviously does not happen..(hello...Priskah..where is the soon-to-be-husband and the great career??), you become depressed. You racked your brain to find the reasons why the life is not how it should turned out and you tried to find the mistakes that you might have done in the past that has altered the future. You punish yourself for not achieving enough.
Then you wonder....Is this it? Is this the life that I have meant to be having?
Probably it is. Probably growing up is not how it's cracked up to be. And probably this is the best life that you can possibly have and asked. Probably you should count the blessings that has been given in your direction and probably you have to start to be content and have a peace with yourself.
So when someone has said "Happy Birthday Priskah. It's about time for you to find a patner" with a serious and worry look on his face, you wont feel down and thought that person has ruined your special day. Instead you can still carry out that wide grin across your face and still feeling a little bit special.
Happy Birthday!
It is common and understandable when these expectations come from people around you You can easily ignore them and move on with the rest of the years. But how if these expectations come from yourself? Ignoring is simply not the solution. When I was younger, I always expect myself to be at a certain condition at a certain age. And when it obviously does not happen..(hello...Priskah..where is the soon-to-be-husband and the great career??), you become depressed. You racked your brain to find the reasons why the life is not how it should turned out and you tried to find the mistakes that you might have done in the past that has altered the future. You punish yourself for not achieving enough.
Then you wonder....Is this it? Is this the life that I have meant to be having?
Probably it is. Probably growing up is not how it's cracked up to be. And probably this is the best life that you can possibly have and asked. Probably you should count the blessings that has been given in your direction and probably you have to start to be content and have a peace with yourself.
So when someone has said "Happy Birthday Priskah. It's about time for you to find a patner" with a serious and worry look on his face, you wont feel down and thought that person has ruined your special day. Instead you can still carry out that wide grin across your face and still feeling a little bit special.
Happy Birthday!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Time Machine
Top Five Reasons why the human kind should build a time machine:
1. people can enjoy the lazy days back in the early 1900s where traffic will not be such a problem
2. poeple can appreciate the value of 50 cents
3. poeple can repeat their happy childhood memories (for those who had happy childhood)
4. poeple can choose not to grow up
5. people can repeat their most happy times over and over again
So for those poeple who has the mind of a genius and has the ability to actually build one..please do so!
1. people can enjoy the lazy days back in the early 1900s where traffic will not be such a problem
2. poeple can appreciate the value of 50 cents
3. poeple can repeat their happy childhood memories (for those who had happy childhood)
4. poeple can choose not to grow up
5. people can repeat their most happy times over and over again
So for those poeple who has the mind of a genius and has the ability to actually build one..please do so!
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Blessed
People say that if you have one or two poeple in your life that you can truly consider as your bestest of friends, then you can called your self lucky. Well, in my case, i just feel totally blessed by having around 10 of them. Let me describe them all to you (dont worry, i wont put any names, guys so you wont be exposed! Ha ha ha)
There's this guy that we've met in 1st year of uni. Pretty eccentric, drama-queen, irrational, extreme kind of guy. He can spent so much money on shoes or bags but yet he'll be totally broke (not even a single dollar in his wallet) for a month. He's loud, bitchy but yet very generous to his dear friends. His nasty remarks are funny and in a way he's the centre of our 'group'. And sometimes if he's in the right mood, he'll be totally sweet and gentlemanly (is there such word?..Hm.. i dont think so)
Another one is a girl with a bag collections that are worth dying for. She's very sensitive, i mind you but it's just her way to show how much she cares. She's also bitchy (when I came to think of it, I think all my friends are bitchy...hu hu hu) she loves to swear and cursing poeple when she's behind the wheel.
Another girl with a sensitive personality then came to our lives. Her 'towering' figure and an exceptionally big feet (not that big..I think) always become her issues. She'll do anything for her friends. She'll be a great EO one day I believe as she always be the one to organize our little trips to the cafes,groceries, clubs, car-washing, etc.
The fourth one is a girl with a great confidence (not a bad thing..)She's loud and she loves to shake her booty (what the F*&%). She may look trashy in clubs due to her ways of dancing (hu hu hu ) but she's a very great person. Very caring. Oh and she didnt mind to have her car borrowed and abused whenever she went back for holidays). And have I mentioned that she always has an ongoing battle with her body??
The fifth one is a guy that loves to talk. Loves is just an understatement. He'll yapping about everything. It can be his colleques, or some rubbish topics that crossed his head. He also has an ongoing battle with his body ( a losing one. i belive) as he loves his food so much that sometime he's in denial. He also loves to dance. He loves showing off his moves to us. Not that we mind cos then we'll have something to laugh at. Ha ha ha. And never ever set up appointments with him and then come on time cos he wont.
Another one is a girl with a big hair. She's a freaking genius but has an appereance of a bimbo. She's rackingly thin, but loves to eat. She looks so easy going but afraids with so little things such as watching Peterpan movie as she claimed it's a horror movie).
Another girl with big hair makes the seventh. She loves to wear sexy clothes and a very diligent student. And she used to have a long distance relatinship that actually worked!! (well, the guy finally came after her to Melb). And amazingly she has 4 mobile phones. Freakkyyyy.
The eight is a very dandy guy. A metrosexual to the max. He has a pretty twisted mind though as he loves to bully the 1st guy with a hot steaming water while beaten the guy with knives..(dont worry..this never happen....it's ajoke..geddit?). He has a very 'tasteful' music taste (or that what he wants people to believe) while hiding a song by Mandy Moore in one of his CD collections.
And there's this guy that has a mind that no one can understand. His way of thinking sometimes makes him being excluded..(well..no one can understand him, anyway!!). Ha ha no offence. But he loves to bring avocado (brought by his mother) whenever he came to hang out with us. Uh..and he has a very sleek CLK. Damn.
And last but not least, a guy that I just starting to get to know. He's adoringly cute and innocent but you can tell that he a 'dono'.
We all have been friends for I dont know how long. We spent many crazy nites in Melbourne. We liaghed, cry, fight, bitch, and obviously had fun together. I can never be able to describe the bond and closeness that we have for each other.
And in a funny way...I have been through dating, breakups, job interviews, whatever life can throw at me and these people remain.
There's this guy that we've met in 1st year of uni. Pretty eccentric, drama-queen, irrational, extreme kind of guy. He can spent so much money on shoes or bags but yet he'll be totally broke (not even a single dollar in his wallet) for a month. He's loud, bitchy but yet very generous to his dear friends. His nasty remarks are funny and in a way he's the centre of our 'group'. And sometimes if he's in the right mood, he'll be totally sweet and gentlemanly (is there such word?..Hm.. i dont think so)
Another one is a girl with a bag collections that are worth dying for. She's very sensitive, i mind you but it's just her way to show how much she cares. She's also bitchy (when I came to think of it, I think all my friends are bitchy...hu hu hu) she loves to swear and cursing poeple when she's behind the wheel.
Another girl with a sensitive personality then came to our lives. Her 'towering' figure and an exceptionally big feet (not that big..I think) always become her issues. She'll do anything for her friends. She'll be a great EO one day I believe as she always be the one to organize our little trips to the cafes,groceries, clubs, car-washing, etc.
The fourth one is a girl with a great confidence (not a bad thing..)She's loud and she loves to shake her booty (what the F*&%). She may look trashy in clubs due to her ways of dancing (hu hu hu ) but she's a very great person. Very caring. Oh and she didnt mind to have her car borrowed and abused whenever she went back for holidays). And have I mentioned that she always has an ongoing battle with her body??
The fifth one is a guy that loves to talk. Loves is just an understatement. He'll yapping about everything. It can be his colleques, or some rubbish topics that crossed his head. He also has an ongoing battle with his body ( a losing one. i belive) as he loves his food so much that sometime he's in denial. He also loves to dance. He loves showing off his moves to us. Not that we mind cos then we'll have something to laugh at. Ha ha ha. And never ever set up appointments with him and then come on time cos he wont.
Another one is a girl with a big hair. She's a freaking genius but has an appereance of a bimbo. She's rackingly thin, but loves to eat. She looks so easy going but afraids with so little things such as watching Peterpan movie as she claimed it's a horror movie).
Another girl with big hair makes the seventh. She loves to wear sexy clothes and a very diligent student. And she used to have a long distance relatinship that actually worked!! (well, the guy finally came after her to Melb). And amazingly she has 4 mobile phones. Freakkyyyy.
The eight is a very dandy guy. A metrosexual to the max. He has a pretty twisted mind though as he loves to bully the 1st guy with a hot steaming water while beaten the guy with knives..(dont worry..this never happen....it's ajoke..geddit?). He has a very 'tasteful' music taste (or that what he wants people to believe) while hiding a song by Mandy Moore in one of his CD collections.
And there's this guy that has a mind that no one can understand. His way of thinking sometimes makes him being excluded..(well..no one can understand him, anyway!!). Ha ha no offence. But he loves to bring avocado (brought by his mother) whenever he came to hang out with us. Uh..and he has a very sleek CLK. Damn.
And last but not least, a guy that I just starting to get to know. He's adoringly cute and innocent but you can tell that he a 'dono'.
We all have been friends for I dont know how long. We spent many crazy nites in Melbourne. We liaghed, cry, fight, bitch, and obviously had fun together. I can never be able to describe the bond and closeness that we have for each other.
And in a funny way...I have been through dating, breakups, job interviews, whatever life can throw at me and these people remain.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
A Sweet Hope
May today there be peace within
May you trust your highest power that you are exactly where you are meant to be....
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you....
May you be content knowing you are a child of God....
Let this presence settle into our bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance,
It is there for each and every one of you
* Mother Theresa's prayer* how sweet
May you trust your highest power that you are exactly where you are meant to be....
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you....
May you be content knowing you are a child of God....
Let this presence settle into our bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance,
It is there for each and every one of you
* Mother Theresa's prayer* how sweet
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Undo
Have you ever wonder..what if life can be undo? Just like in Microsoft Word pf Excel. Ooops..make a mistake?...dont u worry bout a thing...After u learned your lesson...and know the impact of your actions...you can easily undo it...and then the mistake would never ever eppear. But people say that then you will miss the fun thing in life. Like making mistakes and learned the lesson and live life to the fullest as if it your last and appreciation of the small things in life.
But i quite disagree. I think this idea is brilliant. You will then..are able to make the most of your life. Why? Because at the back of your mind....u know that you can undo your action..so you have no preassure....and if you regret it...you can make the incident all over again and just simply change the route. How nice is that?
Example...you have two choice of either spend the weekend in Europe but with ur parents...or go to your best friend's wedding. Initially..u'll choose the 1st one but u reliaze that u have a mental obligation to attend ur best friend's wedding. In normal conditon...you will spend hours and hours on your bed...thinking and churning..which option will be the best. But if this theory of undo can be applied..you can simply choose one. And when in the middle of the road u've realised that you've just make a terrible mistake..you can undo it. Just like that.
I bet then the world will be a much happier place.
And i bet i would not be sitting here...and feeling like the biggest moron in the world
But i quite disagree. I think this idea is brilliant. You will then..are able to make the most of your life. Why? Because at the back of your mind....u know that you can undo your action..so you have no preassure....and if you regret it...you can make the incident all over again and just simply change the route. How nice is that?
Example...you have two choice of either spend the weekend in Europe but with ur parents...or go to your best friend's wedding. Initially..u'll choose the 1st one but u reliaze that u have a mental obligation to attend ur best friend's wedding. In normal conditon...you will spend hours and hours on your bed...thinking and churning..which option will be the best. But if this theory of undo can be applied..you can simply choose one. And when in the middle of the road u've realised that you've just make a terrible mistake..you can undo it. Just like that.
I bet then the world will be a much happier place.
And i bet i would not be sitting here...and feeling like the biggest moron in the world
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Virginal Note
Testing..testing.....wow...now i can start write something here!! Welcome to the world of rubbish made by and for me.
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