Older but None the Wiser

Today is my birthday!!!Well...I never been a big celebrator of my own birthdays. Not that I refused to grow up (I know..i'm still in that "Peter Pan Syndrome")...but people expect you to do more when you hit those special days. They expect you to be more than you already are .Suddenly without realising it, when a quarter of a century has passed, it just hits you that you are heavily burdened by this responsibilities and expectations.

It is common and understandable when these expectations come from people around you You can easily ignore them and move on with the rest of the years. But how if these expectations come from yourself? Ignoring is simply not the solution. When I was younger, I always expect myself to be at a certain condition at a certain age. And when it obviously does not happen..(hello...Priskah..where is the soon-to-be-husband and the great career??), you become depressed. You racked your brain to find the reasons why the life is not how it should turned out and you tried to find the mistakes that you might have done in the past that has altered the future. You punish yourself for not achieving enough.

Then you wonder....Is this it? Is this the life that I have meant to be having?

Probably it is. Probably growing up is not how it's cracked up to be. And probably this is the best life that you can possibly have and asked. Probably you should count the blessings that has been given in your direction and probably you have to start to be content and have a peace with yourself.

So when someone has said "Happy Birthday Priskah. It's about time for you to find a patner" with a serious and worry look on his face, you wont feel down and thought that person has ruined your special day. Instead you can still carry out that wide grin across your face and still feeling a little bit special.

Happy Birthday!