When you heard that he would come over to join you and your friends for drinks, your heart was helplessly trying to calm itself down. The little heart was worried that you might not ready for a meeting. pathetic no. 1. It has been a frikkin year after the meltdown and of course a normal human being will find this occasion as nothing unusual. Of course you'd be ready. You have to be. You are normal and you are not one of those people that you hate. That likes the company of misery in their life. And bathe in them. No, this would be another normal meeting with anyother friends and you should not worry your litle head over it.
When you first saw him, you wanted to punch yourself for smiling to broadly. And that greeting tone of yours, why you just have to be so transparent that you have missed him all this time and you were just so glad to finally see him. And he sat next to you. You distance yourself from him, afraid that your body and his would touched and you were fighting the urge to hodl his hand. Ha! That would be funny if you did. Then the ground would swallow you, head first. Pathetic no. 2.
You acted as usual or so you think. His smell secretly sneaked up on you and you pretend that you did not smell something like love. The conversation was easy and you coud feel the bubbles of admirations were bursting within you. He is so smart. So down to earth. His laugh, his voice, his calmness. His hair was messy and he didnt look any good from the last time you remembered, but he is still the prettiest thing to see.
Why all these walls jsut crumbling down when you are with him. "How could you live without someone that you could not imagine to live without". Is dying is the option? If not i guess then you would need someone to beat you up, just to take away the feelings.
It was over it was over it was soo fucking over why cant you see that.
When you first saw him, you wanted to punch yourself for smiling to broadly. And that greeting tone of yours, why you just have to be so transparent that you have missed him all this time and you were just so glad to finally see him. And he sat next to you. You distance yourself from him, afraid that your body and his would touched and you were fighting the urge to hodl his hand. Ha! That would be funny if you did. Then the ground would swallow you, head first. Pathetic no. 2.
You acted as usual or so you think. His smell secretly sneaked up on you and you pretend that you did not smell something like love. The conversation was easy and you coud feel the bubbles of admirations were bursting within you. He is so smart. So down to earth. His laugh, his voice, his calmness. His hair was messy and he didnt look any good from the last time you remembered, but he is still the prettiest thing to see.
Why all these walls jsut crumbling down when you are with him. "How could you live without someone that you could not imagine to live without". Is dying is the option? If not i guess then you would need someone to beat you up, just to take away the feelings.
It was over it was over it was soo fucking over why cant you see that.
